I have just started a round of psycho-social therapy, aiming to get me back into a resemblance of a life. I have been trying very hard to get myself out of the house and socialise. Last weekend I managed to go to my local pub with a few friends and play skittles and pool. I actually enjoyed myself. This may have had a lot to do with them having Queen's greatest hits on the pub stereo.
This morning's singing lesson left me elated, the feeling of which I had long forgotten. My voice was not by any means, on top form. I had spent the last few weeks lying on a sofa and smoking far too much. It did not matter. We had fun, and that fun fortunately came at a point when it coincided with whatever factor it is, that created a step. A step forward. At least, that is how I feel right now. I was exhausted after the lesson, but when the boys came home I had a little more punch than usual. We have ended up having a very jovial evening (admittedly with the help of a bottle of Rioja). That led me to writing this entry. I thought it might be nice to report that I'm happy for once. Even if it turns out only to be for a day, I am grateful for it.
Tomorrow I hope to go to the Full Moon, where the Pop-up Depressed Cake Shop will be selling their wonderful cakes and raising awareness. I'll have a mailing list set up there for anyone who suffers from depression and is interested in joining a choir. Yep, seems I'm going to be starting one up. It'll be called The Major Lift (thank you to my friend Frasia who won the kudos contest for that inspired name). I don't know where we will meet yet, but once I get an idea of interest I'll sort something out. If you're around Stokes Croft tomorrow from 12-6pm, come and drop by the cake shop.
I'm sure there was something else to say. Sorry, I rarely drink so I hope this isn't incomprehensible. OH YES! I am GUTTED that Sacha Baron Cohen has quit the Freddie Mercury biopic. I couldn't have thought of anyone better to play him. If you have any suggestions, do tell. Not that I have a deciding vote, but I'd be interested to see how you see one of my all-time heroes.
Last thing; I just got a message from a friend who said that my blog had helped someone very close to them. Well, that alone makes my life worth while. Thank you. You know who you are.
And the biggest thank you to my friends who have been there for me these last few weeks. You also know who you are. Thank you. And goodbye. For now. I'm going. Honest.xx